starting again

…still working on that ’starting over’ thing. Each new beginning is a painful place to be and every time I understand again that I was made to create something out of nothing. I am not happy unless I am in that process. Now that its been over a month with one pencil drawing in between that I lost interest in I feel I am moving into panic mode. I have an idea and a preliminary sketch, but once again I face the birth of only one idea and the abandonment and death of all the others. I hate that.